What do you say........

Euphoric

That's a pretty big word, but as I sit here and type this post I think it most accurately describes the feeling I have at this moment.  I almost don't know what else to say or what to do with myself.  This disease has consumed my life for the past eight and half months with such a strong and definite presence, its hard to believe that it is gone.

Just the same ole, same ole

I waited around yesterday Monday April 18th expecting to get the news of the pathology from the surgeons office and was disappointed when I didn't get the call.  So, today I went out and on the with my day as usual.  I took Brady to school, took something to Kevin at school and headed home.  When I got home Pat was up and I completely forgot that I meant to go to the store first (chemo brain), so I went back out.  Of course this would be the time when the nurse Jennifer from the surgeons office would call me.  I was standing in the checkout line at the Winn Dixie when I saw her number calling.  Well, I wasn't gonna not answer it, but was worried about how it would all pan out if it was bad news and I was there getting groceries all alone.  Jennifer told me the glorious news, no evidence of metastatic breast cancer and that the two lymph nodes they took were cancer free!!!  I started crying, Jennifer was crying and she said times like this are what she loves about her job.  Well, remember I wasn't alone......the Winn Dixie employees (many of whom I know by face) were all quite concerned as I was standing at the checkout crying, I told them the news and they all applauded.  Funny, it was just life going on as it always has.

Home

I called Pat from the checkout line with the good news and he was so very happy.  I loaded up the food and got home to my husband at the front door with the biggest smile on his face.  We are just still in disbelief.  The only thing that will make me even happier is to see and tell my kids this afternoon.  I thank you all and love you all for your support and prayers. I could not have done it without all of you.

An Update...........

Promises, Promises…….

I know I promised to do weekly updates and I failed miserably, sorry.  I can’t understand how I can’t seem to get things done when I have all the time in the world to do things.  I haven’t had any work again for some time so I have all day to blog, clean, do laundry, etc.  I can’t seem to do it all.  I did much  better at getting everything done when I was crazy busy with work.

First a little something to make you laugh

Things you don't want to hear during surgery:

Hand me that...uh...that...uh.....thingie.

Oh no! I just lost my Rolex.

Damn, there go the lights again...

"You know, there's big money in kidneys. Heck, shes got two of them."

Everybody stand back! I lost my contact lens!

Could you stop that thing from beating; it's throwing my concentration off.

Anyone see where I left that scalpel?

Nurse, did this patient sign the organ donor card?

Don't worry; I think it's sharp enough.

Now, I ask you for your prayers again....

This Friday April 15^th I will have my surgery.  After a lot of discussion and thought I am going with the lumpectomy.  Since I will have to have radiation and if I had a mastectomy I would not be able to have implants as an option to reconstruction.  The options for reconstruction would be flap type surgeries, that, to be quite honest, I don’t think turn out all that great.  My surgeon believes that the lumpectomy is totally doable and may not make any cosmetically poor appearance of the breast.  That being said, we are hoping for clear margins because if they can’t get clear margins I may not have a choice but to have a mastectomy later.  At the time of surgery I will also be having a Sentinel Node Biopsy and we are hoping for clean lymph nodes.  The chemo did a great job and the only thing left of the large tumor are three small areas that are 6mm each. I will go in at 10:00am for the wire localization (they put a wire in by ultrasound where the tumor is so the surgeon can find it) and my surgery is scheduled for 12:00 noon.  Barring any complications, I should be going home that afternoon.

YES, OF COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!

YES, of course I am scared shipless, I am afraid that I won’t wake up, I am afraid that I will be sick when I am done with surgery and have to stay overnight, I am afraid that the surgeon won’t get clear margins, I am afraid that my lymph nodes will come back with cancer in them, I am AFRAID!!!! But, I will be as brave as I can and be back to me soon. Please keep me in my prayers still and mostly keep my husband and boys in your prayers as they will be so very worried.