GOOD NEWS IS HARD TO COME BY

I felt it to be sorta strange to be happy about anything, but August 26,  today was double edged. I waited and waited, but made the call to the MO at around 11:10 am to find out the results of the PET and CT scans. Dr. Shah told us that the PET and CT scans were clear for the rest of my body, of course the left breast showed cancer and unfortunately the left lymph nodes were positive for spreading.   At least on Monday August 30 I would not have the Sentinel Node Biopsy, just the surgery for the port for chemo.

WILL I EVER CATCH UP??

Well It's September 2, 2010 and I feel like I have already reached my limit in this battle.  Monday was my surgery for my port and it went as well as can be expected.  One thing for sure is that I have REALLY bad veins.  I went into the back to be prepped for my surgery and the nurse hurt the hell out of my hand trying to start the IV, she even numbed it first!!! She gave up and got another nurse to do it, she had a hard time, but eventually got it done.  I don't remember much of anything after that because they sedated me right away.  I guess after they got me sedated they brought Pat back to say goodbye to me, again, I don't remember anything.  When the surgery was done I was in recovery for quite a while, Pat tells me they said I was "combative" and had to put me completely under, breathing tube included.  After many hours they let Pat take me home, it is all a blur, however I do remember that Brady and Pat went out to the store for my prescriptions and Brady insisted on bringing back gummy bears for me to make me feel better.

MY PEEPS IN NUC MEDS

After Monday I had a MUGA scan on Wednesday.  The scan itself was easy, but of course the process of starting the IV was NOT!!!!  Brett tried first (I know the Nuclear med people really well now) but he couldn't get so he called Craig to come.  Craig and I talked for a while and thought about ways to make this better, there are none, I just have really lousy veins and this will always suck.  Craig did his best not to hurt me and after his third try got it in.  He had take some of my blood out and mix it with the radioactive stuff for about twenty five minutes then put it back in. The scan only took about twenty minutes.  On Friday we headed back to the land of needles and pain for my bone scan. Craig was there for me and believe it or not got the needle in on the first try, but it was iffy at first.

 I HAVE BEEN RUN OVER BY A TRUCK

So, here I am on Sunday morning September 5, 2010.  I really hoped to have a nice, relaxing and bit of a productive weekend, but it seems that's not gonna happen.  I am feeling like total CRAP and I am soooo tired of it.  Worst of all, I can't even seem to enjoy BEER!!! This has to be the worst feeling so far, I love beer and beer loves me back.  I guess being put under and having this strange contraption put in was just too much for my body, instead of feeling better I keep feeling worse each day.  Feeling down again, lets hope I can enjoy beer today.